someone else

do you ever wish that you are someone else? do you ever wonder how is it like to be someone else? well, i do. as i walk down the street, i wonder what is that person thinking, what is her story, how's her life's like, and i wish for a second that i can be her for a day.

i am always curious. curious about many things. perhaps, some things that i shouldn't be even thinking about. maybe, this is why i am eccentric or you can say odd.

i wish that i have the power. THE power that allows me to be someone else for a day or two. i will like to try living a lot of people's life. i also wish that i am able to experience life of a different time. not now, but a century ago, or a decade ago, perhaps even longer.

i wish to know how different others think. i wish to know what they feel and how they behave or react. i wish to know whether the colors that i see now, the color that i call red, is the same as the color called red for another person. i wish to look through their eyes, to experience life differently, from what i am currently experiencing. i wish to know what makes them tick, what makes them happy and how emotions feel like, when i am them..

is it the same, i wonder? is it different for each of us?

i want to feel how a different body feels, i want to know how it feels to have different blood flowing in my veins.

but surprisingly, each time i wonder, how it feels to be that person, it will always be a she. never in my mind, did i ever wish to try how it feels to be a he.

i wonder how it will be to have a different background, to come from a different financial state, to look different and have a different group of friends. i wonder and i wonder.

if i ever get the chance, i wonder too, whether i will learn a lot from it, and whether i will wish that i never get the chance to try.

being me, is weird.

the ring on the finger

what does it mean? commitment? a warning to others? a bait to get others? or a symbol of love?
do you want one? the ring on the finger...

just a thought that flashed through my mind when i was commuting. i had a seat. right in front of me was a man. he was wearing a simple wedding band.

there are many stories regarding the commitment of marriage. some are good, some are bad. this makes me think. a lot.

can you tolerate infidelity? can you tolerate the lack of commitment? can you pretend you don't know when you do? can you share?

can you? i know i can't.

and it comes to a point where i think, will i ever be a third party? a home wrecker? i hope not.

what was she (home wrecker) thinking? how does she feel? does she know she will be branded as that woman? that husband snatching woman? that cheap woman? what goes on in her mind?

i am intrigued.

Waiting here, nothing to do but to fiddle with my phone functions to blog

My office entrance. So dark... Gosh, i damn mou liu. Faster, ask me to balik rumah!!

Vacancies Available: Software Engineer & Technical Support

SOFTWARE ENGINEER - 3 vacancies
RESPONSIBILITIES
- participates in all various stages of software development.
- deliver well implemented applications.
- solve technical problems that arise.
- research in new technologies.
- work closely with IT project managers, DBA, Business & Marketing Consultants, External clients.
- must be able to provide support during non-office hours.

REQUIREMENT
- Years of experience needed: at least 1 year involving hard-core programming.
- Qualifications: BSc Computer Science or relevant IT degrees.
- Experience needed: .NET programming language, Java, C++ would be an advantage.
- Knowledge on Service Oriented Architecture & Web services.

TECHNICAL SUPPORT (24/7) - 4 vacancies
RESPONSIBILITIES
- handles customer's enquiry either phone, email or face-to-face.
- conducts network & application monitoring and troubleshooting.
- diagnose hardware & application faults and solves technical problems.
- ability to think analytically and work independently.
- has good interpersonal skills.
- willing to work shifts.

REQUIREMENT
- Years of experience needed: at least 1 year relevant industry experience
- Qualifications: Diploma/BSc Computer Science or relevant IT degrees
- Experience needed: Network monitoring and troubleshooting skills, tolerates high pressure from demanding clients, passionate about problem identification & fixing.

Hehe, Posting an advert here. Is for my company. Anyone interested, please send your CV to cathryn.belle@gmail.com. I will help forward to my company's CTO. Don't want to post her email address here..... Don't know whether she mind or not, so better play safe, and use my email instead. Btw, we don't mind taking in fresh grads. Guys, please help me ask around. Thanks! *hugs*

to tell or not to tell?

Today, while in the LRT, I looked in front of me. There was this woman, reading a book about VOIP. She was so engrossed with that book that she didn't realize that I was looking.

Guess what I saw? She didn't zip her pants. It was left open. She only button the only button and didnt zip it.

And so I thought, "Should I tell her? But how?"

Options:-

1. Stand up and whisper in her ear
2. Type an SMS and show my handphone to her
3. Tap on her hand, and point at her zipper.

Ta Dah.. I did non of that and remained silent. Sigh. I really don't know how to tell her. Embarrasing la. And I know I should have told her.

i want MAXIM 2000!

Someone, please get me this! I so want this! It's somewhat like the "Click" movie. If only relationship is as easy as this! It's like, click, test, don't like, click. Haha. Anyone know where is this selling? Best gift of the year. Would even be funny to have it as a gift even if it doesn't work.

My Confessions

Girl's Confession
[x] I'm not easy. of course, i'm not! but i know a girl who is.
[x] I do wear make up. every single freakin' day
[x] When I walk by mirrors, I can't help but look. yeah, told you i am vain!
[ ] I wear toe nail polish.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater. But i hide my tears
[x] I've purposely talked to a guy my boyfriend didn't like. Yeah, cause i was feeling childish and wanna spite him.
[ ] I love chocolate covered pretzels
[x] Getting a flower makes me smile, especially for no reason. So, i'm hinting for more flowers here! Hurry, Get me one!
[ ] I've wrecked a car. Sorry, haven't manage to wreck a car yet.. but does a dent count?
[x](I can't put mascara) on without opening my mouth. Yeah, laugh all you want
[x] I'd do anything for a special guy. Ask Him
[x] I love cuddling. Er, depends on with who
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is hot in Pirates of the Carribean. i think he looks like a faggot
[x] I've gotten a detention. yeah. detention. when i was in form 1. cause the idiot teacher was having a bad day and wanted to make my day bad as well.
[ ] I've gotten suspended
[x] I love to laugh. who does not like to laugh, please tell me? i think you might need to check your mental health. of course everyone loves to laugh.
[x] I like rock. depends on how rock is the song.
[x] I like rap. actually depends on my mood.
[x] I like techno. only when i want to numb myself or dance.
[x] I carry a purse. i'm becoming old. i know.
[ ] I've been called a "party". what does this means?
[x] I did own a Spice girls CD. erm. does a spice girl cassette counts?
[x] I did own a Britney Spears CD. erm. i've got her MP3s.
[x] Football isn't boring. When there's a lot of HOT players
[ ] I love athletic boys. i don't know
[ ] I love skater boys. i don't know
[ ] I love ghetto boys. i don't know
[ ] I love emo boys. i don't know. i just don't love boys!
[x] Sweet guys are better than hot guys. of course, but the sweet guys must be ok looking too.
[x] I've been called a tease. not a tease. but flirtatious, yes. By my girlfriends! Muahaha, WTF?
[x] Lip gloss is better than lipstick. i hardly use any lip gloss either. i just leave my lips bare.
[x] I can't leave the house without makeup. erm. yeah. if not, i'll wear a really huge shades.
[ ] I'm a bitch. Deal with it.
[x] I play video games, even when there are other people around. i used to be addicted to games
[x] My friends are the best, and they're important to me. i place them close to my heart. *here*
[x] I can be crazy. sometimes i am so crazy that no one can stand me.
[x] I really want to be with a certain someone right now. hehe. who doesn't?
[x] I smoke way too much. yes, i WANNA QUIT! HELP!
[x] I have a tattoo or I want one. i used to want one, very long ago. but now, i don't think so.
[ ] I have been to more than 5 concerts. i've never been to a concert. rather sad, ain't it?

Postponed

everything is postponed. my timeline...... sh*t! everything will be overdue! OMG. damn it! $%@#$%&*&(%^$#$#$%$!%%$&^&^&$#@&^*()(@$#! OMG OMG! timeline bombed!

panic strikes! *sweat* *cathryn jumping up and down hysterically and end up tripping herself and bumped her head*

i shall cross my fingers and hope for the best!

my pretty friends and me!

*Tah Dah! Me!* Fatter I know

*Muacks, Yan Chun*
she's my Pillar of Strength.

*Pretty Hui Ling, Thank you! i'm touched by you*
she's like my guardian angel..

*Gorgeous Mabel - i hearts you!*
I think she look absolutely sweet and pretty here,
don't know why she says she looks horrible in this picture.

the easiest way out

let's just agree to disagree. i agree it is hard. i agree there's no point. i agree it shouldn't be so hard. i agree with the hatred. i agree with the incompatibility. i agree that our views are different. I agree that we cannot achieve what it is expected.

i finally agree to disagree. i no longer want you to understand or look at my point of view as i know you won't be able to and i know it is hard for you. it is also hard for me. thus, let's just agree to disagree.