i remembered when i was a little girl, i used to take evening walks with mum. it was my favourite past time, taking that short walk to the side of the main road, and sitting by the curb of a big drain - the main road was higher than the inner roads, so it created a bench/curb for us to sit on.
it was our time together, where i talked all sort of stuffs to my mum, being the usual me, an extremely talkative girl. we used to sit there, watching the cars past by, and we made a game, counting different colors or types of cars that passes by. it's these moments where i grew closer to my mum, these moments which bond us together when i was young.
after spending some time counting cars and looking at the stars in the night sky, we will make our way to the public phone booth, where my mum will make some calls to my uncles and aunts.
little did i know, that our walks in the evening, are actually an escape for my mum. as i grew up, i begin to realize that mum was actually finding a breather during our walks, she was trying to walk away from troubles with daddy.
and today, i finally found out how she felt. why she needed those walks. why she needed some space. what she actually felt when she was walking with me and how lonely she was.
i was alone in the park for 4 hours. i wanted an escape and i didn't know where to look for it. i didn't know how. so i end up sitting there, pondering, searching for an answer. when time came to leave, i didn't know how.
and i finally know how mum felt, when she took the walk home.
sad to say, when those walks ended, throughout those years, i drifted apart from mum.
i miss looking at the stars.
it was our time together, where i talked all sort of stuffs to my mum, being the usual me, an extremely talkative girl. we used to sit there, watching the cars past by, and we made a game, counting different colors or types of cars that passes by. it's these moments where i grew closer to my mum, these moments which bond us together when i was young.
after spending some time counting cars and looking at the stars in the night sky, we will make our way to the public phone booth, where my mum will make some calls to my uncles and aunts.
little did i know, that our walks in the evening, are actually an escape for my mum. as i grew up, i begin to realize that mum was actually finding a breather during our walks, she was trying to walk away from troubles with daddy.
and today, i finally found out how she felt. why she needed those walks. why she needed some space. what she actually felt when she was walking with me and how lonely she was.
i was alone in the park for 4 hours. i wanted an escape and i didn't know where to look for it. i didn't know how. so i end up sitting there, pondering, searching for an answer. when time came to leave, i didn't know how.
and i finally know how mum felt, when she took the walk home.
sad to say, when those walks ended, throughout those years, i drifted apart from mum.
i miss looking at the stars.
1 Goodies:
It's gud 2 knw tat u still remember ur chilhood clearly. Felt abit touched on this blog too. However, i realised tat i've forgotten most of my chilhood days. Most probably cause i took evythg 4 granted since i was a lucky kid. Now i could c tat u had a more meaningful life than me since u had faced such an unforgetable experience.
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