MEMEMEMEME

Found this on Friendster and i find it interesting to fill it up.

MY STORY.

Hi, my name is: Cathryn
but you can call me: cath
Never in my life have I: been skinny enough
The one person who can drive me nuts is: the one i care for the most
My high school is: somewhere in seremban
When I’m nervous: my heart pounds as if it wants to jump out of my body and my hand shakes
The last song I listened to was: me singing the Alvin and the Chipmunks "The Christmas Song"
If I were to get married right now it would be to: of course to the person i love most.
My hair: is long, straight and slightly brownish with some frindge.
When I was 4: I was still hook to my bottle.
Last Christmas: I was spring cleaning and re arranging the furniture in the bedroom.
I should be: checking my phone cause i heard there's an incoming sms
When I look down I see: my round tummy
The happiest recent moment was: a few minutes ago.. playing with baby Bryan.
If I were a character on ‘Friends’: i never did watch friends.. but i fancy rachel.
I have a hard time understanding: men and myself.
There r these girls: who stood by me through thick and thin, thanks babes!
If I won an award, the first person Iwould tell would be: first person? no.. i'll shout it out loud for everyone to hear.
I want to buy: a super expensive bag that i can't afford and should not be buying.
Where do you plan to go during chinese new yr: go home to spend some quality time with mum.
If you spent the night at my house: you'll find yourself sleeping late.
The world could do better without: holier-than-thou hypocrites!
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: lotsa and lotsa books! yiipppeee!!
Most recent thing someone else bought me: a pair of earrings.
My middle name is: hehe. i'm not telling.
In the morning I: love to sleep in.
Last night I: watched desperate housewives to sleep.
There’s this guy I know: who i spend most of my time with and i love him to bits.
If I was an animal I’d be a: i do not want to be an animal and never ever imagined myself as one.
A better name for me would be: none other than my current name, Cathryn
Tomorrow I am: going to Church.
Tonight I am: having dinner further away from home.
My birthday is: 4 months away.

creativity strikes at the oddest hour

it's funny how, when i finally sit down and write, i can't seem to form the words but when i'm about to fall asleep, that's when creativity strikes. how odd! how inconvenient. sigh. it seemed that i am at my most creative when i am unhappy or when i'm sleepy. thus, explaining the lack of post on my blog.

sigh. does this mean that i have to wake up and write down whatever that's in my head before i sleep?

i feel left behind. i feel that most of my friends are doing so well in their life and me... i'm dragging my feet at the back. or is it me, being overly competitive and ambitious again?

i know. i'm just going to focus on one goal at a time. and this time, i gotta achieve that 10 years old goal which i have failed to achieve. i'm 20 milestones away from the project sign off.

wish me luck!

saturday's indulgence

• Breakfast and lunch: A Glass of Yin Yong and a plate of Olio Pasta
• Tea: Half a regular cup of Coffee Bean's Ultimate Ice Blended
• Dinner: A glass of Herbal tea and a plate of char kuew tiao
• Supper: A glass of milo, a glass of lime juice and bits of roti tissue

yeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaahhhhhh.... i told myself it's the weekend and i am allowed to indulge...

*nods.. food lover won!*

this morning, i was supposed to either swim or take a walk with my friend... however, cancelled it.. cause i was lazy and tired.. and she sounded sleepy over the phone... superb right? as i actually woke up at 7am... and called her to discuss it.. yet end up cancelling it and went back to sleep. LOL i think i need to tell my friend to be firm with me. hahahahaahaha. can't rely on myself to be dedicated to my regime.

went to Pavillion today but end up not buying anything due to the fact that my finances are really tight this month and the next. it sucks to window shop, me being me, cause i love shopping. sigh.

but yay! found out that next thursday is a public holiday... yippee! more time off from work. sounds fantastic! time to plan for another walk or swim..

today's menu

Breakfast: Sweetened Black Coffee
Lunch: 2 pieces of Toblerone & 1 Diet Coke
Dinner: A bowl of crab and fish porridge

yes i am keeping track. i feel sick after OVER eating during the holidays. it has been so for the past 4 months. time to monitor.

and CNY is coming. another overeating overindulging period. and there's a highschool friends reunion.

being a food lover and a vain pot is not easy. most of the time, the food lover part of me wins.

shall update again, when i know what i eat during dinner. lol

off for a meeting now.

Diet of today

*edited*

I've decided to keep a food diary. For me to review my dietary habits and manage it. I know it's boring but I'm lazy to start another blog just for this monitoring purposes.

Breakfast: Sweetened Black coffee
Lunch: Lime Juice, 2 Half Boiled Eggs and 1 slice of Kaya Bread
Dinner: Rice, Curry Chicken, Potato Chicken and Fried Fish

Hahahahaha.... my dinner is waaaaaaayyyyy overboard. now i know where the problem is.

welcome 2008...

the feeling of elation after entering a new year eludes me. i long for the past excitement. i long for the carefree days. what is becoming of me?

i detest routine. restlessness is becoming the norm these days. it tip toed, sneaking behind my back, and catching me unaware, plunging me into the valley of shadows.

and here i am, feeling my way in the dark, wondering when did i reach here.

oh, don't misunderstand. i'm not unhappy. i'm just bored. unhappy is me drowning in tears. now i'm just yawning my way through.

ya, by the way, before i envelope myself in my boredom, happy new year!

to stifle my boredom, i shall revamp myself and start a whole new list of things to do. yet, i'm afraid of failure, so i would not reveal it now. not till i am able to achieve it.

**take a step out of your comfort zone helps you to succeed**

tribute to a friend

it has been so long - 5 years? where are you? i hope life is good to you and i pray that our paths would cross again. you taught me this song, and each time i sing it, it reminds me of you.

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple

I was staring at the sky, just lookin' for a star
To pray on or wish on or something like that
I was havin' a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality, I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag

Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin' works when it costs
Too much to love

And I went crazy again today, lookin' for a strand to climb
Lookin' for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on, put a little love here in my void
He said it's all in your head and I said so's everything but he didn't get it
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy

Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin' works when it costs
Too much to love

Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin' works when it costs
Too much to love

Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh, it kills
Because I know that I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin', it works when it costs
Too much to love

one for the memory

it's that time of year again

time to say goodbye to 2007 that is. a chapter is closing and a new chapter is beginning. would it be more interesting? gosh, i actually wrote alot today, however, in my rush, i did not manage to publish it. which kinda kills my mood to write.

what i was saying mostly was of how 2007 was for me. recently someone asked me, what kinda things that i have achieve in 2007.... and i was stumped by the question. i couldn't answer as honestly, i can't remember what sort of stuff that really makes me proud and want to proclaim it to the world.

to me, i take life when it comes. i live life, not planning ahead, absorbing every single moment of it. don't get me wrong.. i do plan of course, but not everything. i find it hard to plan what to do during my weekends, i find it hard to plan my career, i find it hard to plan for the future, but i do plan how much to save each year, i do plan for trips, hmm.. how do i explain this? i guess, i just don't plan aka think much when the end result requires other factors than just me.

i don't measure my life based on achievements... i measure it by who i'm with, how i'm spending my time, have i been kind, and whether i am happy. i measure my life, based on lessons learn every single day.

to everyone out there, happy new year! live life the way you want to live it, not dictate by others.

and for my memories, a recap of the year 2007:-

• changing jobs yet remaining in the same company - a first for me.
  
• meeting a lovely new friend and fellow reader, Hsin.
• joining the RCIA, thus the beginning of my Spiritual journey.
• acquired a more improved skill of applying make-up, thanks to lots of practice.
• realizing that i'm aging by the speed of Bryan growing up and the numbers of wrinkles on my face.
• commiting to a long term plan where most of my finances go to - sob sob
• finding out that my metabolism rate is sluggish - uh-huh back to square one! darn
• realizing that love is not to be conditional - thanks Mabel!
• climb the Great Wall of China and went back to the past in Hanoi
• gathered my courage and cut my bangs - a hairstyle that i wanted to try since ancient years
• went to lots of weddings and received lots of invitations - congrats, guys! but.. does that mean i'm getting old?
• improved my driving skills - i finally have more confidence in driving further away from home!
• learnt that perseverance paid off..... and it made me a stronger person.
  
• and finally, to end this, i found out that resolutions without the determination and discipline are like empty promises, it just won't happen.
  

was 2007 a good year? of course it was! and to an even better year, 2008, cheers!