bahasa saya bagus!

saya tengah cuba untuk berbahasa Melayu. sudah lama benar, saya tidak menulis karangan. saya rasa bahasa saya sudah merosot. saya sedang mengalami kesusahan untuk terus menulis dalam bahasa. oh shit! this is so hard. it is so difficult to construct proper sentences in Malay after 6 years of not writing in Malay. even typing in Malay is harder and slower. hmm.. how come? shouldn't it be the same.

and i noticed that i construct my sentence in english first then only translate it to malay. which explains why my malay sounds sucky. ever since i finished my SPM, i did not construct a proper essay in Malay anymore. when i was in school, i used to be able to write a 500 word Malay essay in 10 minutes. now, the 3 sentences above, took 10 minutes for me to construct. this is so bad.

i once announce that reading in Malay gives me a headache. this coming from a girl who once read so many Malay novels when she was 10. i gave up understanding the Malay language when I was 14, as they change the rules and structure of the language so often that I kinda got so fed up keeping up with the changes. For example, from the age of 10 til i was 15, i was taught to pronounce baca as baacaa, suddenly when i was 16, i can read it as baace. What happen to the Bahasa BAKU that was instill in me?

come to think of it, i can't even remember how to sing Negeri Sembilan's anthem. i sang it every morning from monday to friday, sometimes even saturday, from the age of 7 till i was 17. how can i forget??? please people, don't ask me to do it, cause I really can't remember it at all. not even the tune. all i can remember is, that it has a livelier tune than Malaysia's national anthem. it really seems that i forgot almost everything that was taught back in school. as my friend would say, i gave all the knowledge back to my teachers.

goodbye good BAHASA MELAYU skills. welcome Bahasa Pasar.

June Tagged Me!!!!!

First time ever. Never been tagged at blogosphere before. The subject of today's meme is 5 Reasons Why I Blog. Which surprisingly, is almost similar to my last post. How coincidence. Hey June, seems like we "sam leng siong toong". Great minds think alike. So shall I write about that again? Wouldn't it be boring?

Well, a tag is a tag. I shall respond.

Reason 1
When I first started working as a consultant, I was needed to write some proposals, and some business analysis. And I find it so hard to write. Even to write some simple emails. It was so difficult to express myself. Alarms started to ring. I had to do something. I used to write so much, I did not have any problem at all with writing. How could this be? Is it because I did not write for a year already? Oh no! This couldn't be. This cannot happen! A plan has to be made. *Ting - Light bulb was alight.* Yes, I shall start a blog. I shall make a habit of writing again. Practice makes perfect. Or rather, in this case, practice makes expressing easier.

Reason 2
I don't see my friends that often. I have friends scattered over the globe, US, Australia, Singapore, Indonesia, UK, Hong Kong, etc. In a way, this blog serves as a purpose for them to know that I'm still alive and kicking. To let them know the happenings in my life. Or maybe, more of my thoughts. For them to know all the nooks and cranny in my head. To let them know what to expect of Cathryn and also, so that they wouldn't be surprised when I react in a weird way. LOL

Reason 3
I don't really understand myself. I am always soul searching, taking personality tests and all to understand myself better. Sometimes I don't even know what I want. Sometimes I don't even know how I feel and why am I feeling that way. I am always forgetting what happened in the past. To me, this blog will be a reminder to me of all the events that had happened in my life. Perhaps, this blog will serve as an insight to what kind of person I really am.

Reason 4
Any better reason than, because I love writing. I guess maybe it stems from my love of reading. Or maybe because I love to talk. Or maybe a combination of both. What better way to express my love of talking and reading.. than through writing? By writing, I can talk whatever that's left in my head that I forgot to or did not manage to tell my friends. By writing it now, I can read all of it later, in the future. I am providing myself with my own reading material. Hahahahah

Reason 5
I actually couldn't think of reason 5. Cause the above is all the reasons why I blog. So I sat down, and think and think and think. And finally, I know. I want to know how good I am at writing. Whether there's anyone other than my friends that would be interested enough to read my blog every day. I want to know whether I am interesting or whether I am dull. I want to know whether if one day, I decide to write for a living, would I survive? Would I have fans? And also, of course at the end of the day, I hope that I'll have my own group of readers.

During the course of writing this, I told John I was writing this. He asked me what would be my reasons. And I asked him what he think would be my 5 reasons. He came up with 2 reasons. One, cause I am narcissistic and second, cause I have the time. I was like, damn John, you saying I love myself. And he's like, doest thou deny it? Haha... No, I don't deny it. I think it's good to be narcissistic. It's a good thing!!! And about me having the time, I guess partly true partly not. Cause sometimes when I'm so busy, I'll try to make time to sit down and write a post. Haha Too bad John, both of your reasons are not in my list!!!

By the way, i would like to tag the people below:-

1. Jamy Gan
2. Yenny Lim
3. Mun Yee

This is homework for all of you. Remember to do. If not, I'll come after you with a "rotan".

i only blog 9 times during the month of february?

wah. how can this be? i am such an avid blogger. well, i like writing about all sorts of nonsense in my head. i like reading blogs too. but i do notice that my blog has too few photos. but i'm not a photography person. i only like taking pictures of myself. which i don't do now cause i am too fat.

is blogging just another one of my short term enthusiastic hobby? will i just forget about blogging in another month? i hope not. we shall see.

at the beginning, when i started this blog, my intention is to practice writing. as after a long time of no writing, i find it hard to express myself. also another reason was to let my friends know what's happening in my life. a way of keeping in touch with my friends. as time passed, i realized that i continue blogging because i enjoy writing. and also, it is fun reading your older posts.. and reminisce about the past.

i always believe that to improve yourself, you need to take some time and sit down and think of your past to think what you did wrong and how could you be better. examine your memories closely and what you identify as mistakes, try your best not to repeat it again. and i believe, in the long run, you'll be a better and happier person. at least, when you don't repeat your mistake and feel like smacking yourself on your forehead, you'll be less likely to bruise your forehead. aakakka

i think my life long dream is having people pay me to write. what a pleasure. but i'm happy enough if there's a group of avid readers to my blog. for those who constantly read my blog, thank you for your support. however, please do drop some comments once in a while to let me know that there's people reading my blog else, i'll feel discourage cause i thought there's no one reading my blog, thus i'll write less often or maybe i'll even stop blogging? cause what's the point of writing if there's no one reading it, right?

my patience has a limit

i wanted to write an anger filled post. however i thought better of it. i shall be more civilized. i am no barbarian, unlike some others. *chanting the mantra - tai yan yau tai leong - means i'm generous or something like that in Cantonese. i shall not be angered/offended by someone like that. it is so not worth it. because i am of a different level. :P

some certain person does not deliver when he promise. the same certain person twist and turn his words. the same certain person needs 10 minutes to tell me something which usually takes me less than 3 minutes to tell. imagine my frustration when i speak with him. i have to wait so long for him to finish his speech, repeating his points over and over again. sometimes it comes to the point where i kinda spaced out when he repeats what he said before. this is bad. so now, i pay full attention to what he says. although it torments me like hell.

sometimes i wonder, when it comes to work... where's the professionalism? i mean, not that i'm that great at it, but a deadline is a deadline. please stick to it. do not make me postpone my plans over and over again as you cannot provide the necessities. believe me, i am so fed-up.

i digress. talking about professionalism, i realized that mine.. at the image part, is lacking. i have a problem of standing and sitting straight. i hunch. which sucks. i try to sit properly and stand properly but it seems to no avail. i need to be reminded all the time. sigh. and also, i need to learn to be firm. i hate being taken advantage of. *must look confident all the time, must look confident all the time*.

thought of the day: i feel like an over bloated fish. i am so fat now, i can't stand it.

Hiatus of Posts

Happy Chinese New Year! Better wish now.. since it is still Chinese New Year.. after the fifteenth day (which is Sunday, 4th of March), it is no longer CNY. I know it has been a long time since I last blog but.. the few days of work before CNY was rather busy.. and I took a week off for CNY to go back to my home...

I come from a small town called Seremban.. back home, my family does not subscribe to broadband, since it's only my brother who is using the Internet.. and also, only to check mails once in a while, so it would be a waste to subscribe to Streamyx/Maxis or whatever. pssst... he doesn't know how to download stuff... unlike his smart little sister here.. akakakkakaa. i didn't log on to the Internet when i was back in seremban.. as i hate dial-up.. and also.. this CNY has been a busy yet relaxing week for me.. aaahh.. the pleasure of not worrying bout needing to wake up early.. i miss it oh so much..

Also.. I met up with Frances.. an old friend that i did not see for the past 3 years.. ever since she went to Singapore and work - to join the kiasu gang. lol. luckily, she's not kiasu. same old Frances. but different in a way. i think you can't avoid maturity if you have to work and fend for yourself for 3 years. she and her boyfriend.. are still going strong after 5 years of relationship.. i so envy you Frances. and i think i hear wedding bells are ringing. remember to invite me to your wedding ya? even better, i'll like to be your bridesmaid. hehe.. so beh pai seh. requesting it myself. hehehehe when you are back in KL.. look for me ya?

speaking of which, reminds me of a term, forever a bridesmaid, never a bride. would that term refer to me? or rather, shall i say, forever a girlfriend, never a wife? i think i send those kind of vibes to people. oh, well, people always do judge on what they see on the surface, never caring enough to look beneath.

each trip back home to seremban, makes me wish that i can company my mum longer. each time i see her, seeing her aging, kinda hurts me. i feel helpless. and every time when it's time to go back to kl, i feel sad. as i feel that i'm abandoning her. however, as time pass by, working day after day, weekend comes, social obligations, the need to rest and all, making me neglect going home to see my mum. you know what, if i had a car, i would go home every month to see my mum. even if it's only for a little while. but i think, what i said just now, about social obligations, and tiredness and all, is just a pile of bullshit. i'm just.. lazy and taking my mum for granted. cause if it really matters so much to me, i could have just take the bus and go home on friday night and come back to kl on monday morning. right??

i am digressing again. back to CNY, this year, I manage to collect RM280 of angpaus/laisees. I lost around RM20 at gambling which is little as I only gambled 5 times this year. as i grow older, the less i gamble. i think i gamble at least 3 times more when i was younger. CNY is about gathering with your extended family and friends, angpaus that you wish you have more of, non-stop eating and non-stop gambling, well, at least in Malaysia. i'm using my angpaus/laisees money to last me for the remainder of the month and yippee!!! to pay a small part of my low credit card bill this month! i was so hype when i realized that my credit card bill is 60% less than my usual amount.

i pledge that this year, i would try my best to save as much as possible in a month!!!!! at least 100% more than last year!!! Happy Golden Piggy Year!!! Wish you all a year full of health, wealth, prosperity, love, success, beauty and wisdom!

P.S. after a hiatus of posts, i realized that my posts today is quite erratic and sounds more like a senile woman rambling on and on about the innards of her head. Yucks! who would want to dig into my head?? beware to those who even try.. cause you might live to regret it.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Yeah I know it's late. Albeit a bit late, it's better than late than never. Other than the bad news that I received, and feeling a little down, my spirits were lifted up when Yenny came to have lunch with me. While on the way to see Yenny, I bump into Myatthu. Talk about coincidence.. what are the odds? LOL sure is a small world! So I asked Myatthu to join Yenny and I for lunch.

Apparently, he was at the Singapore embassy to settle his visa stuff and he was on his way back when he saw me. If I were to walk out of my office a minute later, I would have missed him. Hmm.. it was quite a pleasant surprise.

We went to a restaurant that serves noodles in big bowls... called Taiwan Noodles, somewhere near Ampang Point. The food there is serve in big portions and are relatively cheap. Albeit its name, it does serve other types of food, besides noodles. Haha I had a big bowl of dry glass noodle with fish balls, one wintermelon tea and some extra dumplings. I only had to pay RM13. Cheap right?

After lunch, I rushed back to office, and to my pleasant surprise! I saw a bouquet of red roses on my desk. Thank you so much, Stephen. I know it must have cost a bomb, especially since it's Valentine's day. This is actually my first time having someone sending me flowers in office. It's such a sweet thing to do. Nice gesture, to me at least. You light up my day! Hmm.. a dozen of red roses.. I wonder what does it mean?? Hehe.. I know that numbers represent something... well, if you are into such things. Haha Sorry guys, the flowers are gorgeous, you should have seen it, but too bad, I'm not really into taking photos and posting it up here. You just need to imagine it. Ekekekeke

On a another hand, tomorrow I'm on emergency leave to attend my uncle's funeral. Gotta wake up really early to take the LRT to Gombak and have my brother pick me up from there. Then we shall head on to Bentong. The funeral procession is starting at 11 am so due to unpredictable CNY traffic, we have to leave as early as possible. My mum asked me to wear dark colors (of course, mum.. I know the culture..) and not to wear any make-up (huh? mum... how is that possible? can't i at least apply some powder?). I'll look like a monster. I think at the very least, I need to apply some powder, else, I don't think I dare to walk out the house. Sigh.

Anyway, have a great day ahead, I shall need to go now. I still haven't take my shower. Adios, amigos.

Goodbye, dear uncle....

i'm having mix feelings now. i don't know how i feel. this morning, when i woke up, i got a sms from my brother, notifying me that my uncle, my mother's eldest brother has passed away. i didn't see him for such a long time. i thought this year's Chinese New Year, i'll be visiting him and others. i really didn't see this coming. gosh, i really hate it when this happens. through out my childhood, each Chinese New Year, i'll be back to bentong and gather together with my extended family. each year, my uncle will be sitting in his chair and eating peanuts with us. this year, i would not be able to taste his cooking anymore. i would no longer hear his deep voice and warm crackling laughter. i would no longer be able to see his tanned face wrinkles up when he laughs. i really can't imagine it.

every time i go back to bentong, he'll be there. this year, it will be different. different from how it used to be when i was little. back then, every school holidays, my mum will bring me to bentong. there, i'll have lots of playmates - my cousins. then my uncle will bring us around town, for tea in his old grey car. it was our routine. sometimes, we will have an outing to the river... and spent the day there, swimming, fooling around with the cold crystal clear water and picnicking. it has been years since we did that. all of us grew up, and end up being too busy for each other. all of us have our own life now, and somehow, i got caught up with my life so much so that i didn't see my uncle for so long. although my uncle didn't have much, but he gave us hours of fun and at times, guides us when we are lost. he was always concern about us. he was one of the fatherly figures in my life.

suddenly, i feel as if my bubble has burst. it's as if, i have to face the fact that those days are gone and we need to behave/act/think like responsible adults now. no longer am i the fat little girl who tags along her cousins nor cries when she's near an ostrich. i can never go back to those good old days. all that remains, are memories. and through out the last 5 years, as soon as all of us got out from school and went to college, i hardly meet my cousins. we hardly hang out together. sigh. also, at the same time, this reminds me that my mother is getting old too. and i fear that, one day, i'll receive a call, informing me of such bad news. please, don't come so soon. there's so much more to do.

dear uncle, i'll miss you a lot. i'll always remember the times we spent together. memories of you will forever be etched in my heart. don't worry about us. we will take care of ourselves. rest in peace, my dear dear uncle.

Amazing Grace
Words by John Newton 1779

Amazing Grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas Grace that taught my heart to fear,
And Grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come.
'Tis Grace hath brought me safe thus far
And Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His Word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures.

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we'd first begun.

I'm not going out of my mind!

I just realize that my earlier post make it seem as if i'm going mad. nope nope nope, sorry to disappoint you guys. Am just experiencing.. mood swings.. due to PMS.. akakak.. just bear with me.. i just like to whine and be melodramatic. hehehehehehehe..

i'm such a drama queen - addicted to the extremes

i'm feeling.. rather blue this whole week. i want to whine. just let me whine at my blog. i just want to let it all out. i feel so down.. i think my face, without make-up is blue. and listening to Faye Wong's love songs are not helping. her voice is so melancholy.. striking a chord in my heart.. in a spot I rather forget about.

i think it's PMS. things that i was trying to forget is resurfacing. matters or memories i tried so hard to compress or hide it so deep inside my heart is coming out, demanding me to re-live and re-think about them. was i wrong to hide them? will i ever be able to let go of it? i'm in doubt. the answers that i got.. are they true? can i believe them? have i really lost all my faith in this matter? or is this just my PMS talking? hormones going haywire.. affecting my thoughts and emotions.

i'm quite the extremist. when i'm happy, i'm so happy i feel as if i'm floating on a cloud. when i'm sad, i'm so down that i'm so deep in the depths of despair. there's no in between. other than boredom of course. i'm such a drama queen. i'm addicted to drama so much that when life becomes average or mundane, i'll start thinking all sorts of nonsense that it drags me into the pits.. sometimes i think, there must be something wrong with me. cause i feel unhappy all the time. even when things are going right. and i still feel so empty. my happiness maybe last for that moment or so. that's all.

it has come to a point that irrationality rules my life. my thoughts and my opinions.. about myself, are bordering on madness. i know that i'm irrational. i know that all of it is nonsense. i know it is not true. but i can't help it. i think maybe this is a way of how i deal with boring mundane life. i create drama for myself. in my head. which sucks. i keep telling myself, that i'm creating a mountain out of a mole hill, that nothing is wrong.. but somehow it doesn't really register in my head.

someone once told me that i live in my own world. listening to what i want to hear only. and twist and turn it into something that is totally different from reality. i wonder whether that's true. i hope not. cause i don't want to become a nutcase. i'm not right, guys?

* the grass is not greener on the other side. i am not the worse off person in the world. in fact, i'm very lucky. i believe in myself. i am not ugly. i am not disgusting. i am not incapable. *

omg, i just want to believe in myself. someone, spare me some confidence! i hate feeling so insecure.

Cathryn is a Kucing Sakit aka Taufu

Sienz... I've become a sick cat/kucing sakit.... I'm not feeling well again. This time, it's the flu.. cough, phlegm and some irritation at the throat. Oh ya, and slightly feverish... However, I do not want to take MC again. I repeat I do not want to take anymore MC at least... for the month of Feb. If possible, no MC in March too. So I've been pulling myself to work this week. But luckily, I'm not feeling that bad. At least no headache!!! hehe...

Tomorrow my company is having a get-together Chinese New Year dinner at Chef & Brew, Damansara Heights. I've been there before, and I really like that place. The food is good, reasonably priced.. and the ambiance is... good to chit chat and chill. It is located at Southern Bank there... at a new white building at the other end... The food there, is a mixture of Asian food and western. And if I'm not wrong, it is under the Victoria Station group. Not sure though. Haha What to wear what to wear? for the dinner... I don't know... Ever since I put on this weight.. I stop knowing what to wear.. I hate my flabby arms.. and thighs.. and I stop having the.. mood to buy pretty clothes too!! oh, damn!

Today, I finally tried the very expensive Japanese butter bread. It's RM18 per loaf you know! Hmm.. love it a lot... but but.. it is so fattening... I'm really regretting it now... I cannot afford to put on more weight... Sigh... The aroma of the bread.. is a delicious scent of butter and cream.. hmm.. yummy.... and it is so soft... even after you toast it... it will have some crunchiness and yes.. so soft... hmmm.. and the taste.. heavenly!!!

Note: this bread is not for those that do not like butter....

Too bad.. I can't take it anymore....... Bye Bye Expensive Japanese Butter Bread! I will miss you! Bye Bye Creme Brule, I love you! Bye Bye Cream of Mushroom soup! Bye Bye Lasagna! Bye Bye Chocolate! Bye Bye my Sinful Caramel Macchiato! Bye Bye Cendol! Bye Bye Nasi Briyani! Bye Bye Spaghetti Carbonara! Bye Bye Marble Cheesecake! Bye Bye Ice Cream! Bye Bye to all my beloved! Farewell.... till the day I lose back all the weight, I can't eat you anymore.. Au Revoir~~

*Sob Sob* *Sob Sob* *Boo hoo*

Girls, this one's for you!

Another question - Will you rather be fat but have a potential to have a gorgeous body or rather be super slim but not nice body shape? Hmm.. let me describe in detail.

We have 2 choice here, to be fat but have a potential to have a gorgeous body or be super slim but an average body shape. Hard choice. First, let me start with the fat option first.

If you are fat, it is really hard to become thin. To achieve the body you want, even if you have a potential to have a great body. Unless of course, you have a really really strong discipline. And also, certain body parts, are really hard to slim down. When I say potential, I meant it like this, you have the enough breast size and butt size to look nice. Also, some waist line although you are fat. So when you are diet and exercise like mad to become thin, you actually are able to carry off clothes nicely. Hmm.. Va-Va-Voom.. Hot Hot Hot.. However, most people would have a difficulty in following the strict diet and exercise regime.. so a vicious cycle begins. Strict diet + vigorous exercise -> Lose weight -> slack off, eat normally -> put on weight -> start diet + exercise again -> lose weight ->oops, party, eat more -> put on weight... and so on, and so forth... Torture Torment Torture Torment

Ok, option 2, super slim but no body/average body shape.

So now, you are the envy of all fat girls, cause you are so slim. Yeah you do have nice legs, and arms, and a waist but too bad, your breast size and butt are inadequate. Sideways view, so thin you can fly away, flat stomach.. yippee! but.. ahem.. flat.. other parts as well. From the back.. yeah.. nice body.. no excess fats on your back, thin shoulders, yeah, and a waist, but too bad it is not that define.. anyway, not that bad cause you still have some width to your butt, so you can still see some shape to the body. Front view, tsk tsk tsk.. Not that nice.. as you look too thin.. the body is.. like a 12 year old boy's... But then again, all these can be compensate by, wearing wonder bra or add a lot of padding to your bra, wear flare skirts and a belt to chink in your waist.. just highlights your ahem.. extras.. or form an illusion.. Regarding bout the butt, you can achieve it by doing lots of exercise to enhance it.. also lots of work.

Well, girls, which would you choose? I'm torn between the both... Hehe.. Both is so tempting... Anyway, in real life, we have a lot more variety of body shapes and sizes.. so this is only two.. Erm, oh ya, I hope no one gets offended by my description... Sorry ya? if you are..

Question of the day!

If you do not need to work, what will you do? Let's assume that you are well-off to a certain extend.. meaning you can live comfortably without needing to work full time but not luxuriously. I was talking about this with Desiree just now. But Desiree said I'll be bored with my life if I don't work. Somehow, I don't think so. I can find things to occupy me. Believe me, I can. Ahahahah.. If I were that lucky, I will:-

1. Do another degree.. whether it is MBA, or a mass communication degree.. I would like to have the luxury of studying without needing to work part time.. hehehe
2. I would like to do some free lance jobs..else I'll be very bored if I don't work and didn't study.. Free lance jobs, after my MBA first? And also.. to earn a little pocket money, rather than just relying on savings and such..
   
3. Learn to play the piano.. Still in my list of things to do.
4. Mahjong! oh Mahjong, how I miss you. The all nighters.. early morning breakfasts.. or midnight snacks....
   
5. Yoga. Pilates. I want to be flexible. Haha
   
6. Dancing. Whether it is ballroom dancing or belly dancing.. I'll like to learn it.
   
7. Learn to cook and bake. Hmm.. Food is my passion.
   
8. Write more. If only, there's some way I'll be able to write professionally.
   
9. Read and read and read. All sorts of books.
   
10. Do some travelling. I'll like to go to a lot of places. Maybe go to UK, and have a holiday there and do some work there too.. Earn some travelling money. Hehe
    
11. Watch lots and lots of TVB shows. Hehe..
    
12. Shopping, of course. But within limits. Since money don't grow on trees and I don't work.
13. Tea time with friends.. and yak the day away.
    
14. Join the gym. Join the classes there and play with the machines.. and drool over those HOT HUNKY but too bad is GAY guys. haha
15. Sleep in. Oh, how much I love sleeping in.... and my afternoon naps... those are luxuries that working people don't have...
16. Go jungle trekking or hiking... that is fun occasionally.
17. Take lots and lots of photographs.. and upload to my blog.. hahaha...
    
18. Take care of my yet-to-buy pet.. a dog.. Yippee!

Basically I think I would just want more time.. and besides, I think doing freelance jobs are much more interesting.. don't you think so? You've got the choice to do different kinds of jobs. All sorts of it. I guess it really depends on your own creativity to get odd jobs. haha.. And yeah, I'm a lazy bum, just want to have the freedom to sleep when I like. Gone were those days when I don't sleep the whole night and not worry about it cause I know I can sleep in the morning... Sigh.. I would love to study again... unlike the last time, i want it to be more relax.. as in all of my attention concentrating on studies, no need to work part time.. and no need to squeeze in as much subjects as possible in a semester. Alas.. this is just a dream.. unless I marry rich and become a "Siu Lai Lai"? ekekekkekekeke... Just kidding ya...

I've got the monday blues... thus, I'm dreaming of something that is.. so far fetch.. Sigh. eh, when I'm gonna strike lottery ar? I want I want... to bum.. and freelance.. Meaning, I am my own boss... Work when I like, and don't work when I don't feel like working.. Hmm.. before I sleep tonight, I shall need to pray to God... for numbers!!! ahahah.. or the luck!!!

Oops, I forgot something. Did I just FFK someone? Oh, die die die die die...
*Cathryn scurries away...