Cathryn - Who is she?

Facts about Me, Cathryn:-

• i am paranoid. if i were to go traveling, at the back of my mind, i'll have this dreadful feeling that i left something behind. if i leave the closet open, i'll be thinking what's inside the closet.
  
• i am a food lover. i eat non-stop. you'll see me eating whole day long if you spend long enough with me.
  
• most of the time, i talk a lot. sometimes i talk lesser. once in a blue moon, i stop talking.
• i wear a size 7 shoe. sometimes 6. but hardly.
  
• i am 165cm tall - 5 feet 5, i wish i am 5 feet 7.
  
• i am 10kgs heavier than what i want to be. i've been dreaming to be 10kgs lighter since i was 12.
  
• i see my girl friends more than my guy friends. i used to have a balance of guys and girls as friends. now i have more girl friends.
• i love to sing. i used to belt out songs at night in my house in Seremban while lying down on the cold marble floor in the living room. i sang so loud.. my opposite neighbour could hear me clearly. but no one, i repeat NO ONE ever complain.
  
• i used to be nocturnal, now due to the fact that i'm working, i sleep much earlier.
  
• i have my seasons. there is a season where i read a lot, a season where i watch tv alot, a season where i shop a lot and so on and so forth. but basically, u can say i'm a shopaholic.
• people thinks that i'm high maintenance. what they don't know is, what i have, or what i want, i bought it with my own money. no, i don't take a fool for a ride and use up his money. i'm just not like that.
  
• i've been living away from my family for 5 years, since 2002.
• i own more than 100 books. a variety of mysteries, romance, chic lit, well, i read almost every genre.
  
• i rather sit down in a cafe and chit chat with my friend than go to clubs. I only go to clubs once in a while. so no, i'm not a party girl.
  
• i drink a lot of coffee. back when i was in jakarta, i went to Coffee Bean there every night. but due to my recent headaches, i think i have to stop drinking that for awhile.
  
• i love pasta. and soups. My favourite Chinese soup is the lotus root soup.
  
• in my 22 years almost 23 years of life, i've only receive flowers, 5 times. Pathetic right?
• i look better in photos than in real life. so people, be prepared for a surprise when you see me in person.
  
• i do not give out my numbers to strangers. i do not meet people at clubs or bars. well, basically i don't want to know strangers. i will only put an effort to know you if my friends introduce you to me.
  
• my favourite color is turquoise. however my wardrobe is dominated by black and dark colors.
  
• i have a fetish for shoes. i simply.. like nice shoes.
• i haven't manage to kick that bad habit of mine. if you had read my blog earlier, you'll know what i'm talking about.
  
• i'm no mat you can simply walk over. i can be very patient with my friends. i can be very protective in fact. however, do not ever try to falsely accuse me or betray my trust, cause hell hath no wrath like Cathryn.
  
• if you admit you are wrong and apologize, you'll be surprised how easy i can forgive you. but never repeat it again.
• i have long curly hair. currently, i'm waiting for it to reach my waist. i have a fantasy to have bangs. however every stylist i see, says that i'm not suitable for that kind of baby doll look.
• if i'm to overnight in a foreign room, i'll leave all the lights on. yes, i am that paranoid.
• i hold an IT degree. i can program. i used to be a software engineer.
  
• i do not drink like a fish. although some may have that perception about me.
  
• i have this fascination with steamboat. i just don't know why. i can have it more than twice a week. sadly, nowadays, i only have it once in a blue moon.
  
• i've only been to thailand, singapore and indonesia. if i have the money, i'll travel to a lot of places. sometimes i wish i can stay in new york and live there for a few months. hong kong too. tokyo too. i just want to feel how it is like to live there.
  
• one of my bestfriends, Desiree, has been my friend for 21 years ++. she used to stay opposite my seremban house.
• when i was young, i thought i'll be married at the age of 23 or 24. now i don't know.
  
• i thought i know everything. i thought if you love a person truly and be there for him, everything will be happily ever after. oh, i was so wrong. and naive.
  
• when i was 7 till i was 12, i wanted to be a doctor. i thought it was cool to be a doctor. my daddy even asked around for universities when i was that age. LOL
• i was very set in my ways when i was young. i was very judgemental. i had my set of thoughts on what was right and what was wrong. now, i'm much more laid back. my motto to my friends are; as long as you are happy, i'll support you.
  
• recently, someone said that i'm spoilt. cause i always want it my way.
• i am very egoistic. i am very conscious of myself. for example, i dislike people watching me cook. i dislike people watching me do things i'm not certain that i can do well.
• i'm stubborn. really really stubborn. to the point that it annoys certain people.
  
• i'm not a neat person. my work station is really messy. so is my room.
• i would like to have a beagle or a golden retriever once i have my own house. i think beagle is cute and golden retriever is so gentle.
  
• i always lose one of my earrings. so i end up having a lot of earrings not wearable as it is not a pair.
  
• i always take pictures of myself. cause i am so vain. haha
• i dislike girls who are not independent. i dislike them giving excuses for not doing things themselves. i find them weak.
• i like to play mahjong. however i'm not really good in it. so i always end up paying a lot of tuition fees.
  
• i think that's enough about me writing about myself for now.
  

How about you all write things about me? Can anyone tell me? Anyone of the readers here can describe me? I want to see how.. people perceive me. I hope that there's someone who will respond to my question. Thank you very much.

MC = Medical Certificate

Yesterday I pulled a sickie and stayed at home. Spent the day either lying down or sleeping. Let me recap the whole day:-

• 7.30am - Alarm rang. Woke up, Realized that my migraine is still there.. and was thinking whether to go to work or not. Was measuring how painful my migraine is.. The problem with me and taking MCs is that I will keep on thinking whether I should take or not, whether I am really that sick or I am just lazy.. So in the end.. I'll be wondering whether I imagined my sickness or is it really there.
  
• 7.35am - Decided to go to work. So woke up, wash my face and took a shower.. And change
• 7.50am - In front of the mirror, wanting to comb my hair and apply make-up, I felt really really nauseated and the dizziness increased. Decided to go to the doctor's.
• 7.55am - Realized that the doctor's is not open yet. So was waiting around till 8.20am.
• 8.25am - At the clinic; Doctor not in yet. Have to wait for him.
• 8.45am - Doctor's in. Am diagnosed with migraine and vertigo. Doctor gave me 2 types of medicine for migraine and one more for vertigo. Medical bill came up to RM40 which was pretty cheap.
  
• 9.30am - Reached home. Had Nasi Lemak for breakfast first before taking my medicine. Took medicine and went to the room and lied down.
  
• 9.35am - Still couldn't sleep. So put in Desperate Housewives to watch.
  
• 10.00am - Migraine seemed to be better, due to the meds. Still couldn't sleep so continue watching Desperate Housewives.
• 12.35pm - Lunch. Cintan noodle with egg and chili sauce. Hmm.. Yum Yum..
• 1.35pm - Took medicine and continued with Desperate Housewives.
  
• 3.00pm - Doze off.
  
• 6.30pm - Dinner; Rice with ikan bilis sambal, vege and fried egg.
• 7.00pm - Nap
• 8.30pm - Woke up. Loitered around, doing nothing, lying down on the bed.
• 10.00pm - Sleep

That's how I spent my day. What a waste of time. Am still having my dizziness and am still feeling nauseated. But is slightly better with the medication. I just want it to go away...

Excerpt from NeurologyChannel:-
A migraine is a throbbing or pulsating headache that is often one sided (unilateral) and associated with nausea; vomiting; sensitivity to light, sound, and smells; sleep disruption; and depression. Attacks are often recurrent and tend to become less severe as the migraine sufferer ages. Signs and Symptoms:-Migraine pain is often described as throbbing or pulsating pain that is intensified by routine physical activity, coughing, straining, or lowering the head. The headache is often so severe that it interferes with daily activity and may awaken the person. The attack is debilitating, and migraine sufferers are often left feeling tired and weak once the headache has passed. A migraine typically begins in a specific area on one side of the head, then spreads and builds in intensity over 1 to 2 hours and then gradually subsides. It can last up to 24 hours, and in some cases, several days.There may be accompanying symptoms such as nausea, vomiting, sensitivity to light (photophobia), or sensitivity to sound (phonophobia). Hands and feet may feel cold and sweaty and unusual odors may be intolerable. Migraine with aura is characterized by a neurological phenomenon (aura) that is experienced 10 to 30 minutes before the headache. Most auras are visual and are described as bright shimmering lights around objects or at the edges of the field of vision (called scintillating scotomas) or zigzag lines, wavy images, or hallucinations. Others experience temporary vision loss. Nonvisual auras include motor weakness, speech or language abnormalities, dizziness, vertigo, and tingling or numbness (parasthesia) of the face, tongue, or extremities.

Excerpt from Wikipedia:-
Vertigo, sometimes called a headrush, is a major symptom of a balance disorder . It is the sensation of spinning while the body is stationary with respect to the earth or surroundings. With the eyes shut, there will be a sensation that the body is in movement, called subjective vertigo; if the eyes are open, the surroundings will appear to move past the field of vision, called objective vertigo.The effects may be slight. It can cause nausea and vomiting or, if severe, may give rise to difficulty with standing and walking. Vertigo is usually associated with a problem in the inner ear balance mechanisms (vestibular system), in the brain, or with the nerve connections between these two organs. The most common cause is benign paroxysmal positional vertigo, or BPPV. Vertigo can be a symptom of an underlying harmless cause, such as in BPPV or it can suggest more serious problems. These include drug toxicities, strokes or tumors (though these are much less common than BPPV). Vertigo can also be brought on suddenly through various actions or incidents, such as skull fractures, sudden changes of blood pressure, or as a symptom of motion sickness while sailing, riding amusement rides or in a vehicle.

Oops, I did it again!

Yeah, I did it again.. I totally forgot to pay my HSBC credit card bill.... sheeeeettttt!! This is the second time.... This is so not funny.. It's not as if I can't pay the bill.. but.. I keep on forgetting... What happen to my memory?? Am I so forgetful these days?

Each time I forget to pay.. I'll call HSBC up.. and pretend "Oh, I did not get my bill statement thus I don't know when to pay, so can you waive the charges for me?!!??".. Sigh.. I hope this time will be the last time.. It's not funny you know??

However, on a happier note, my salary just came in... Well, I got my claims' cheque earlier last week.. a good indication that salary is coming in.. haha.. But till today, I haven't bank in my cheque.. Someone once said this to me, "Har??!! You haven't bank in your cheque? It's like... 2 weeks already?? Har??!! You forgot?? Wah.. means you really must have a lot of money in your account as you don't count the days for your money to be bank in.." Well... it's not that I have a lot of money... but.. I just am forgetful... and besides... my claims aren't a lot... just a couple of hundred...

And also, due to the fact that I've been working for a year or so.. I should have a tiny bit of savings in my account, right? So I'm not exactly counting pennies to survive.. But not rich enough to go and get myself a Gucci or a Manolo either.. or a Jimmy Choo... oh my.. how I wish I have one.. haha.. I'm beginning to sound like a bimbo here..

I've been spending the past few days.. reading a girl's blog.. Gosh, I do envy her.. A lot.. She has like tonnes of Fendi, Prada, Manolo, Chloe, Gucci, LV, Jimmy Choo, and so on and so forth.. She has been to all the places that I want to visit, just name it... sigh... and she's darn pretty too! and has such a nice body!!! and she's so smart and creative.. sheeetTTT!!! *Cathryn's face turn green with envy* and guess what? She owns a apartment... bugger!!! and she's only a year older than me! She has a blardy nice job.. but I admit it is tiring.. and taxing.. and.. a group of loving friends by her side!

Well, I do admit that most of what she has is because of her rich daddy.. But at the same time, she works damn/really hard too..And she IS smart and creative! And from her blog entries.. she seems to be a really nice friend too.. loving and caring.. but I think she has some drinking problem cause I think she drinks.. wayyyyyy too muccchhhhh!!! I hope for her sake, that she'll drink lesser...

Oh, well, no one can be perfect.. However, I salute her and for her ways.. Cheers, YC! Live life to the fullest!

Just shoot me!

I had a really bad case of Migraine today. It was so bad that I couldn't see properly. My right eye was giving me a problem. I was looking at things as if.. there's something wrong with the screen. It's like we are looking at the screen or picture.. and at the edges.. there are some blurring.. some digital blur.. damn! What's happening to me?

Today I woke up, feeling as if a truck had ran me down the night before.. and my eyes, blurry.. looking at the world.. through another glass.. And my head... felt so heavy.. and as if there's someone squeezing his hands at the sides of my head.. trying to make it smaller.. Yeah, I know my head is slightly bigger than a normal person.. but... don't torture me by forcing it to be smaller?? And so I had lunch.. I thought it would pass.. the migraine and the sight problem.. but by 2.. I couldn't stand it... and went to bed.. At first, I couldn't sleep.. but I couldn't bear opening my eyes... So I was just lying down... closing my eyes.. wishing I could sleep.. Finally, I doze off and slept.. the day away.. till 5 plus... Woah.. I wanted to continue sleeping... but I figure since I'm better.. I better wake up.. I don't want to waste my Saturday away...

Well, my eyesight came back.. and I am feeling much better.. but still, my migraine remains.. although not as terrible as before.. and I'm feeling pretty much cranky when I'm writing this.. I feel.. weak... my legs and arms.. have all gone soft on me.. and I feel as if I'm on a merry-go-round.. with the whole world spinning.. passing by.. without waiting for me..

Fine, have it your way!

I wanted to post Memories of Jakarta Part 3 here.. too bad.. my photos.. doesn't want to be uploaded.. so fine.. I shall leave it for another time...

These few days, I've been feeling rather lethargic.. and I felt as if I just want to laze at home... lie down.. sleep.. or at least.. just rest.. I don't know why am I feeling that way.. but perhaps.. is the lack of exercise. LOL.. yeah.. I am lacking in exercise..

Since young, I dislike almost all forms of sports.. with the exception of badminton and swimming. I would like to play squash but I didn't get around to learn how to.. so I can't say I dislike squash.. Talking about sports.. and things that I never got around doing... well I have tonnes..

I think I'm those kind of person who is rather fickle minded or shall I say has a short attention span? I have a long list of things to do since I was young.. but till now, I never got around to it.. Well, let me list it down...

1. Play the Piano - I actually wanted to learn about music.. and play at least the piano.. but my parents.. were reluctant to allow me to learn.. cause all my other siblings.. was just fooling around when they said they want to learn.. and abandon it halfway.. so my parents thought I was the same as them.. Sigh
   
2. Swim Properly - I learnt how to swim breast stroke.. but the rest.. I don't know how.. and also.. I think my breast-stroke sucks.. Cause I swim so slow.. and I panic easily in the water..
   
3. Play Squash - I think I watch too much tv.. so I thought it is a cool and interesting game.. cause I can hit the wall... and vent out my anger without getting scolding
   
4. Play Tennis - Hehe.. TV influence again.. I tried once.. and didn't get around to really learn.. I guess when you are older.. you are shy-er.. to embarrass yourself..
   
5. Ride a horse - I wanted to!!! Since young... since a baby.. but but but.. had a bad memory about it.. and from then on, my want to ride a horse.. faded
   
6. Write a book - Don't laugh.. I wanted to write a book for my own satisfaction only.. not to published.. I know my own.. capabilities.. and how good or bad I am at it..
7. Dance ballet - I think it's too late for that.. haha my bones are too hard now..
8. Take studio photos - I keep on postponing that.. got various reasons la.. no money la, too fat la, want to be thinner la, pimples la.. busy la.. till today.. I've still got excuses.. lol

For the moment.. I can only remember those.. maybe one day.. more will surface... I know as a child, I was really curious.. and was eager to try out a lot of things.. I've got really wild imagination and I spent hours playing.. imaginary games.. I imagined that I was on a ship la.. or imagined that I was in a tunnel, trying to climb out.. or imaginary wars.. imaginary crocodiles.. well.. what to do? I was alone.. and had only my imagination as a playmate.. at least during the holidays, my cousins would visit me and we would play together.. aaaahh.. those were the days..

Nowadays, as all of us are working, I hardly see my cousins... Even the really close ones... Life.. is so different than what I had imagined it to be when I was little....

Memories of Jakarta - Part 2 - First Outing to Plaza Indonesia

This is really bad of me. I know I promised to upload these pictures.. But.. hehe.. I was lazy.. so here it is.. Part 2... and.. there's part 3.. I promised.. it won't be another 2 months till I upload it again.. this time.. it'll be sooner.. all right?

Part 2 is actually my first outing to Plaza Indonesia... in fact.. my first venture.. out of my accommodation.. which is Taman Anggrek and also first venture out of.. Bank NISP.. my working place.. I wouldn't called it an office.. cause.. it is just temporary.. for me at least.

The girls, at Plaza Indonesia.. Here we are!
Hui Ling, Me, Shervene, Wei Wei, Eva, Erna


Hehe, Cheeky us, at the escalator..
Erna, Hui Ling, Eva, Me


The 3 stooges.. outside a peculiar looking shop.. dark.. with nothing except for a tiny aquarium with some plants in it.. hmm.. I wonder what they are selling?
Me, Tze Joon, Hui Ling


At Red Tomato.. Lunch! The Lasagna - Superb
Eva, Hui Ling, Me


The Girls at it again! haha..
Hui Ling, Me, Eva, Shervene, Wei Wei, Erna

A Candid shot.. Hmm.. I wonder what I was looking at.. Some handsome hunk?


The 3 Leng Luis.. Ahem.. in Hard Rock Cafe Jakarta
Wei Wei, Shervene, ME


Another candid shot.. Me and Hui Ling was browsing the Hard Rock Shop


Ok.. A Proper Pose...Cool Brick Wall eh?
Wei Wei, Me, Hui Ling, Erna, Eva, Shervene


Another Popular Bar, F Bar
Robin, Me, Hui Ling, Wei Wei, Eva, Shervene


Hehe.. Tengah Jalan Pun Bisa Ambil Photo, Ya?
I guess we are a bunch of vain girls!
Hui Ling, Wei Wei, Me, Erna, Shervene


While waiting for BusWay.. Is a type of Public Transport.. somewhat like the LRT, but using BUS! BusWay have their own special lane for their bus.. so no jams.. hehe
Oops, Sorry Der Chyuan.. Cut you in half, Robin, Eva, Wei Wei, Tze Joon, Shervene, Me peeking at the back there, Hui Ling, and Jhien Chien.


I love this picture a lot.. Just the 3 of us.. in a hot van.. Inside can squeeze in 10 person you know! (Actually the rest was sitting opposite us.. all in one van) But too bad, I forgot the name of this type of transportation.. hehe.. I shall check with Erna later..

So here it is.. end of Part 2... Part 3 Coming Soon!

Guess what I got from my trip away?

OMG, I look into the mirror.. and I saw.. a couple of HUGE RED Pimples on my face and... some small ones... Sigh.. Is this what you get from traveling? I hate pimples.. it doesn't seem to want to leave me alone! Every time I thought my face has cleared up, and the pimples.. will be away, at least for some time.. it comes back.. with a VENGEANCE!

Due to the nature of my job, I get to travel. Perks of the job. Yeah, traveling is interesting.. and I am very lucky to get such a job that helps me to develop/polish skills.. that will be very useful to my career. Anyway, when people hear that I get to travel on and off.... they will say, "Wah, so nice ar, get to travel! so much fun!" I don't want to sound ungrateful here or that I do not enjoy my job, nor am I complaining, and I also did not say I do not want to travel for my work anymore, it's just that, people need to realize that when you travel for work.. it is tiring.. and not really that fun. Most of the time, your schedule will be full and you wouldn't have much time to explore.. or even when you do, you just want to crawl onto your bed, slide beneath the quilt, and just sleep.

But, a very HUGE BUT, I did enjoy my trip. I love my bed. I love the fact that I had such a big bed to myself... and I was rather greedy, sleeping with FOUR pillows...ahahaha.... and during this trip, I realized that subconsciously, I fell in love with the city of Jakarta. I guess people will ask me why. What's so special? The crime rates there? The never ending bird flu? The air pollution? Well, I guess, I like the fact that.. the people there are courteous, at least, in shopping malls, when you get down the car in front of the entrance, there's someone to open the door for you. I like the language... I think that it sounds better than Malaysia's Malay... I think I sound like I'm betraying my country.. but I do prefer their language.. But, I think most importantly, is the friends I met there. And also the bittersweet memories I had there..

Well, there are things that annoy me to the max there too.. I think some of the doctors there, really suck big time! I think that the water there sucks... Pollution.. We were advised not to drink the water there.. even if we boiled it beforehand.. it is still not safe. So when I was there, I had to drink bottled water. And I have this thing against mineral water.. I hate the taste of it.. And oh, out of all the people that was sent to work there (erm, my ex colleagues), 9 out of 10 of us will experience stomachache.. diarrhea.. even though we did not take food from the roadside stalls.. But lucky me, I guess I'm the number 10. Haha.. Perhaps.. my stomach is stronger.. Or so I thought.. haha.. Cause after I got back from Jakarta this time around, my stomach.. is.. feeling quite funny.. Ok, I'm going to give out extra information here.. haha.. Since Thursday night, I've been to the toilet 8 times! The funny thing is.. my stomach felt fine.. during the time I was there.. However I kinda lost my appetite there.. No worries though, being a food lover as you all know.. my appetite is back!

Erm, please excuse me, y'all! I gotta... go to the loo... *Stomach making funny noises, Oops! Cathryn hurriedly ran to the loo..

I'm Back!

Sorry bout not updating my blog but I was not around. I was in Jakarta since Monday for a business trip. I came back on Thursday night and I was too tired and busy to update on Friday.

Albeit a bit tiring, it was a pleasant trip. Although my schedule was rather busy, but I managed to see one or two of my friends in Jakarta. Gosh, how I miss them. This trip, I stayed in Mandarin Oriental Jakarta. In its website, it boast to have the biggest room of all the hotels in the whole of Jakarta. It has a king size bed.. I had the whole bed to myself.. and I had 4 pillows.. ahahhaahahah

Everything was good and pleasant, however, I met with a major pain in the a** on my flight back to Malaysia. She.. was quite pretty. But weird. You know why? Ok, let me describe my whole trip on the plane. The moment I entered the plane, I was looking around for my seat. As the plane has a total of 6 seats each row.. 3 on each side, separated by the aisle, I was hoping for the person sitting next to me would be a girl. My colleague would be on my right and someone else would be on my left. So when I saw that the person who is sitting next to me, is a pretty chick, I was rather happy. Pretty yes, but her make up was kinda weird.. she had fake eyelashes on.. which was so obviously fake.. cause the curls of the fake and real eyelashes does not go together.. the fake ones were curling upwards.. whereas the real ones.. were kinda straight.

Wow, my first impression of her was, rich chick! She had a LV bag with her. It was really big.. and nice.. And she was wearing some shoes from Guess.. I think.. well, besides that, she has two of the latest 3G mobile phones.. Anyway, to continue with my story, right after the plane took off... just before they serve dinner, she decides to go to the loo.. So her seat was right beside the window, so to get out, I would need to let her squeeze through and my colleague needs to get out of his seat and stand at the aisle. So we let her pass, and guess what? she went to the loo so long that... they serve the meal already before she comes back. When she came back, me and my colleague need to take our tray up and stand up, go out to the aisle while at the same time holding on to our meal tray. That was really inconvenient. Fine.

Next, the air stewardess asked her, what does she wants, chicken or fish? Both are with rice. Then Ms I'm-rich-thus-I-can-get-what-i-want-without-considering-others, asked the air stewardess to open up each of the dinner box to let her see how both looks like. So the air stewardess had to open it up even though it was against the rules.. and besides, doesn't all in-flight meal looks the same? Then she said she wanted fish.. so the air stewardess was preparing to take the fish for her, and suddenly she asked, whether the chicken comes with rice or not? and then the air stewardess answered her yes, it comes with rice.. so I take chicken for you? then ms rich says oh no, I still want my fish. Ms air stewardess rolled her eyes.. and passed her the fish. LOL..

Then, Ms Rich barely touch her meal.. and went to sleep. She put her seat down to sleep.. so when we were going to land.. all seats have to be up right.. so Ms air stewardess came and tried to wake her up to make her put her seat upright. I guess Ms Rich must be having a really nice deep sleep cause she was not waking up, so me, as her neighbor, had to wake her up.. So I touch her shoulder and ask her to wake up.. WAH, the moment she's up, she put her seat upright grumpily.. place her hand near her heart as if I gave her the shock of her life, and start showing her temper at ME!!! WTF?? Why me??? I was only being kind...

Ms Rich, took her bag, roughly... And unzip it.. roughly,... and making all those funny noise.. showing that she was really pissed of with me!!! ME??? ME!!!! Why me??? What a B**TH! She continued showing her temper.. while putting her make up on! And you know, you can't switch on your handphone on the plane.. Well, she actually answered a call when the plane was still moving... but we were already landed.. FuiYOh! Answered a Video Call...

I don't know.. but she really did.. pissed me off! Is she inconsiderate or what? Isn't she really blardy spoilt??

Tarot Cards - I am....... The Moon?

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

From Me to You

I've not been there

All along you were here
Always, For me
While I'm elsewhere

I'm sorry

For the things I've done
For the things I did not
For the times I was there
For the times I was not

You protected me
You cared for me
You love me
So much

I want to do
So much for you
Will I ever
Be able to?

I wish I could
To tell you how much
I actually
Love you too

Happy Birthday, Mum! I love you so much! I know I never tell you so... I just find it hard to do so... Thank you for everything. A million thank yous, a million hugs, a million kisses... for all the time you stood up for me. I wish I could give the world to you.

Satisfaction doesn't come easily

Things never stay the same. As you age, your hopes and dreams change. You become more realistic.. or perhaps, more cynical. Your world seems to be more complicated. It takes much more to be happier. Sometimes you don't even know what can make you happy. Even when things are going right, you still feel unhappy. Why? It was different when you were little. It was easier to be happy or unhappy. It was simple.

When you were little, probably your happiness depends on whether you are getting that sweet or that toy or whether you are going to the playground. I still remember that I love soft drinks and KFC. Nowadays, my favorite drink would be coffee and food .. well, there's lots. Back then, what I worried about was whether I get to watch my cartoon or daddy wants to watch the news. Now, what I worry about will be the grown up stuffs... financial, career... family.. friends..

In the past, my routine was to go to school, come back, do homework, watch tv, read and play. Right now will be to go to work, go home, have dinner, watch tv or read or surf the net.... Still a routine. Notice the similarity --> watch tv! Well back then were cartoons.. now .. dramas.. and sorts..

When we were little, if we feel afraid or were in trouble.. we would run to our daddy and mummy. Now, when we are all grown up, you better learn how to deal with it yourself... but of course, you can share it with your close friends and family.. but the final decision is in your hands. What you do is your responsibility. Others can only listen, advise and observe.

And I think, with so many things for you to be in charge of, well mainly your life, you tend to find it harder to live fully. Cause for worry-worts like me, I tend to over think each and every decision or mistake i make and stop enjoying the process of living. Perhaps, I shall need to learn how to "Let it be, Let it be".

Sometimes I wish I can go back to be a kid. However being a kid, relinquishes almost all decision making. The right to decide means control. Relinquishing that means giving up control, giving up your freedom. Are you willing to do so? No more late nights, no more impulsive buys, no more reckless actions.. But.. isn't that good? Even if you give up your freedom to your parents, so what? It's nothing, really... cause parents always have the best for you in their heart. Aahh... the burden of a parent. Not only that they have to go through the agony of making their own decisions.. they have to decide for their children too.... How many sleepless nights and pounding headaches that they had to go through?

No matter what, everyone needs to grow up someday. And the day that you realized that you have grown up, will be the day you realized that you find it harder to be happy... satisfaction doesn't come easily. That's the price you pay for growing up.

OMG, OMG, OMG, I've got SPLIT ENDS!!!!!

HOW!!!! HOW!! How???? I don't want to cut my hair short. I've kept this hair for so long...... I want to keep my hair even longer... how to solve this?? I've thought of changing my hairstyle to straight and long... and cut in those.. oh.. I don't know how to describe... but.. looks.. quite.. calm and collective.. hehehhe

But now, my plans are destroyed. Must I go cut my hair? I want waist long hair!!!!!! Hmm.. how would I look with short shaggy hair with bangs? Ok... Drum Roll Please.......

Ta DAH -->

Scary right? Ugly... and yucks!... Please don't make me into an ugly hag! I promise I shall be really good and always will apply hair mask... and everyday apply hair conditioner... and do hair treatment.... Just.... DON'T make me CUT my HAIR!!!!!

Air Asia - Free? and RM9.90 to London?

Everyone can fly! There are 1,000,000 (1 Million) free tickets on 70 routes for grabs! I've checked the availability just now... and hehe... most people are getting the tickets to Macau... I think that those people... wants to fly to Macau to go to Hong Kong. Hmm... I know this... cause I've thought of it before. Haha... Anyway, during this period of 'while tickets last', www.airasia.com will be quite laggy. Yes, I know that the tickets are cheap or rather in this case free... there are a petrol surcharge and airport taxes.. so in the end... not as cheap as you hope for... AirAsia says that it is able to provide cheap tickets because they provide e-tickets, and no in-flight meals. They actually sells food and drinks at a expensive price on board!!!! One cup noodle for ... if I'm not mistaken RM5..... if you buy in Giant, it's only RM1?? Imagine how many cup noodles you need to eat to reach London? How much you'll spend on board???

The Chinese says "There's no such a big frog simply hopping on the streets!" (Mo Kam Tai Jek Kap Na Chui Kai Thiu) which means no free meal in this world. Two words - Marketing Gimmick!

Ok, I'm rambling here, remember? I'm diagnosed with temporary insanity.... LOL Sorry about my grammar.. Can't think properly.. think I better go to bed... Nites, everyone!

Temporary loss of sanity due to receipt of information unacceptable to reason

I was diagnosed that. By a self proclaimed doctor. Guess I'm really losing it. Temporary or Permanent is yet to be seen.

Bad habit of Mine

This is really such a bad habit of mine. I'm updating my blog even though I've got lots to do. Anyway, guys, I shall be.... not updating as often now, not daily.... Calendar quite pack already. Maybe can do, two days once... LOL..... Gotta go.. Just announcing... this.. that's all.. Ciaoz

Me and My Babes

This is a picture of me and my babes (from upper left clockwise:- Me, Jamy, Yenny Mun Yee) in Coffee Bean before Christmas. Hehe.. I stole this picture from Yenny's blog. Ahahhahaha

It was a wonderful night. They really can make me laugh! Lurveee you girls! Muacks Muacks

Low Blood Pressure Causes Fainting

Someone fainted. In the LRT. I was asleep. Was rudely awaken by a hand. I thought it was the chubby woman sitting next to me. Cause previously I was awake and she was sleeping.. almost leaning against me. When I open my eyes and was feeling rather annoyed... I realized that it was another woman standing with her bracelet stuck to another woman's shirt.. that woman was sitting next to me. So I help her to untangle it. And she manage to released herself from her. All this while I was wondering how did she manage to get stuck to her shirt.

Finally I realized that the woman sitting next to me fainted. It seemed that she has low blood pressure and that it was lower than 50 the last she checked. Caused a lot of commotion. Got another woman was helping her to check her pulse.. Actually slap her body a few times, and called her name, "Susie, Susie! Wake Up! Wake Up!". Gave her some sweets to eat and "minyak angin" to smell. Maybe she got some medical background. Looked quite professional. I felt helpless while watching them. Cause I didn't know how to help.

Which reminds me to be careful. As I have low blood pressure too. But so far, I've never faint yet. Touch wood!

For Better or For Worse?

How familiar is that phrase? But how many couples manage to do so? It's not as easy as it sounds. Even if you love him a lot. Even if he loves you a lot. More likely than ever, it's always for better and when for worse, couple.. may not withstand the pressure and say their goodbyes to each other.

I've heard many stories of couple going their separate ways when there is a crisis. Sometimes, it's financial, sometimes it's a death in the family, sometimes it's diseases. Many people, even I included, will criticize the person who chooses to leave his or her partner when in trouble. Seriously, when you sit down and think about it, I cannot entirely blame the person for leaving. It's not easy. It's hard. It's exhausting, draining every ounce of your energy, emotionally, physically and mentally.

Let me help you understand.

Let's just say there is this couple, Drake and Mary. They were really happy together to the extend of planning their wedding. They were suppose to be wed in a year's time. One day, a few months before the Big Day, Drake was diagnosed with cancer. Together, they fought the disease. Mary was there for him through the doctor visits, treatments, basically anything. Drake began to have effects from the chemotherapy. His hair started dropping, he became thinner and as time pass by, he became more and more recluse. He would keep everything to himself and on and off, he'll have emotional outbursts, releasing all his anger, hurt, disappointment and exhaustion on everyone that's close to him.

Mary naturally, took most of it. She understood that she needs to be patient and that he is going through a tough time but, what most people doesn't realize is, what about her? What about the partner of the person who is sick? She could not tell Drake about her feelings, her problems, as he has enough on his plate. In this sense, she just lost her shoulder to rely on. She too, has to cope with the emotions. She too has to fight against the disease, not only Drake. She has this giant ball of worries in her all the time for him. Never knowing when he'll be better.. or perhaps, just suddenly be gone, that she'll wake up one day, alone. Just because she's the partner to Drake, everyone expects her to be there for him, to be strong, to be basically everything. And just like everyone else, she has the same set of expectations for herself. She needs to be there for him, she needs to do everything for him, she needs to ensure everything is in order for him, ensure that he's comfortable, even to the point of neglecting herself.

Then one day, she just couldn't take it anymore. Just right after one of Drake's outburst. Although she loves him a lot, but she's so tired that she could not withstand it anymore. She doesn't have the strength and courage to follow Drake on his journey anymore. She made the hardest decision of her life, which is to leave him. It was the most selfish decision in months. Finally, she is putting her needs first. She has to do it. When she told him, he was quite understanding. They didn't have a fight. In fact, it was the most heart to heart talk ever since Drake found out about his cancer. However, outsiders.. were not that forgiving. All the name callings, all the finger pointing, even some of her so called friends. Oh dear, poor poor Mary.

Sigh. This is reality. Yes, maybe not everyone is that, but this is just one of the scenarios. This proves that we as humans have to be more understanding. Be more open. Stop restricting yourself to the surface and based your opinions on that.

What I've learn as I grew up is there's always two sides to a story. Always a gray area. In life, nothing is as simple as black and white. Nothing is ever really wrong and nothing is ever really right. Depends on how you look at things. I'm learning to be more open and to always try to understand how others feel, to try to be in their shoes and never, never be as judgmental as I was when I was in my teens. I do admit that this is not an easy feat. And yes, I am still a tad judgmental but I'll keep on trying. To understand.

Genie in a Bottle and The Search for Perfection

I was having a conversation with John and I asked him, if he had 3 wishes, what will he wish for?

He said that he will wish for:-

1. Good health for him and his family.
2. To be wiser
3. and three more wishes.. hahahahah.. but if can't, wealth

I will wish for:-

1. To be extremely rich.
   
2. Good health for me, loved ones and friends.
   
3. Perfect body, according to my measurements.

Hehe.. I know the list is pretty materialistic and shallow. But but... wealth.. who doesn't want it? and also.. a perfect body.. is what every woman wants. Has been my dream since young.

Back to the topic of the search of perfection by women... Famous Singaporean Blogger, Xia Xue went for a nose job sponsored by a Famous Plastic Surgeon in Singapore. Talk about the search for perfection.... Will you go under the knife to be perfect? Botox? Nose job? Boob job? Liposuction? Reshape your jaw? Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! OUCH!!!

Have you watch the show, Extreme Makeover? or the Swan? How painful. How extreme. Women can really do anything for the sake of BEAUTY. Why? Due to shallow people. Due to society's perception of BEAUTY. They just want to be accepted. Sigh.

I think I'm quite traditional in this sense. I'm not really open to plastic surgeries... unless it is done due to accidents or fire.. But at the very least.. I can accept.. eyelid surgery and liposuction. From a single eyelid to become double eyelid. A lot of Chinese, Japanese, Koreans do that. It's quite common. Liposuction is to reduce fat.. but doesn't change your face much.. ok, maybe I'm bias. Liposuction is painful. But for example, reshaping your jaw... isn't it EXTREMELY painful? The jaw bone will need to be smashed.. and a new plastic one insert.. yucks! Isn't it not who you really are?

At the end of the day, you can't recognize yourself anymore. Do you really despise your own looks that much? There's this pageant in China.. girls who had plastic surgeries.. competing for their newly acquired beauty. Sigh. Miss Plastic.

Everyone out there, be proud of who you are! I think make ups and clothes.. really can help a person's image. Anyway, just love yourself and as long as you are happy, I think, it's all right. I need to open up. I shall learn to accept people who choose to go for boob jobs, nose jobs, and whatever kind of surgery. At least.. they have the courage to face it. At least, they are really trying to achieve their dream. Here, I shall wish you all the best! Just... don't get addicted to it...

My Room, Clean it... and New Stuff To Buy!

List of NEW things needed in my room:-

1. Pillows - My Old ones.. are well.. old
2. Comforter... My current one is 5 years old
3. Mattress - Current one... is old... I want those thick ones.. Maybe..
   
4. New Curtains? Let's go Ikea and see...Maybe....
5. Another closet........ maybe.. my old one.. is full... and is kinda.. falling apart
6. Buy a plastic box or two... to keep stuff underneath my bed..
   
7. Buy one or two more bed sheet....
8. Shoe Rack..... I need to organize my shoes.. Maybe
   
9. New Antenna for the TV??
10. Any other suggestions?
    

List of things to do for my room:-

1. Throw away my old assignments and papers...
   
2. Throw away all those old mattreses..
3. Finish all those half used shampoos and conditioners.. and throw it away..
   
4. Transfer all the info on my PC and delete it from it.. then give the PC to my bro
5. Throw away all those things I do not need.....or maybe give away.. old clothes... old caps...old bags..
   
6. Utilize my cabinet fully. Rearrange my books, facial products, make ups, accessories and such.
7. Rearrange my photos...
   
8. Sweep and wipe my room..
   
9. Wipe the TV, the table.. ornaments.. and all..
10. Erm... give away all my glass bottles.. or throw it away.. hehe

A New Year, A New Beginning, & A NEW ROOM! Oh, well, almost.. Perhaps.. I'll rearrange the furniture in the room too! Akkakakaka

Project Name : Cozy Quarters
Codename : Roomover
Start: 6th January 2007
Estimated End: 31st January 2007

STOP! Don't Run Away! & ~Me & My Imagination~

Darn! Today could have been a lovely day.. except for the fact that my nose is running... I hope it won't run away from me by the end of the day! The temperature in my office is not helping either.... it's cold... too cold for my nose.. I think maybe that's why it is running away... ekekkekke

Just now, I was browsing through my colleague, Winnie's blog.... So interesting and so cute!!! got so many photos to see... and got funny bubble conversations.. and it's funny and quirky... Now my blog seems... rather blah.. beside hers... sigh.. need to improve more... But.. I'm not much of a camera person.. the only thing I like taking pictures of... well.. is ME!

After a long holiday, I find my brain rusty.. Can't seem to focus on my work.. I need to start my engine... Ok, shall start by bugging my contacts in New Zealand to give me the information I want...

Time to start work! Adios!

Oh, wait, wait! Need to tell my story about last night....or rather yesterday. Nowadays I'm so forgetful.. I keep on forgetting things.. or leaving things around. Yesterday, I left my wallet at home and went to work. Smart eh? Had to borrow money to take a cab to the LRT station. Then lunch, had to ask my colleague to pay first. After work.. I went to have a drink with a friend.. while waiting.. I was in Masjid Jamek.. alone..at night.. without a cent in my pocket.. no ATM cards, no credit cards..no IC, no cash.. no nothing... Luckily my handphone was fully charged.. Still can call my friend to chit chat while waiting.. hehe.. I was joking with my friend... if someone were to rob me at that moment.. he will surely be really pissed....

A Figment of my Imagination
Robber:- Har?!! One cent also don't have? RM1 also don't have?
ME:- Er..sorry, really don't have... I only have make ups in my bag...
Robber:- Har?!! Where's your wallet? ATM card? Go withdraw money!
ME:- er.. er.. er... sorry, don't have wallet.. left it at home.... so sorry..(trembling in fear)
Robber:- Har??!! AIYO!!! Me really dau mei(unlucky)la.. Rob a no brain person! One cent also tak da, alone in Masjid Jamek!!! AAAAAaaarrrggghhh!!!
ME:- sorry, sorrry.... I give you all my things.. take my bag.. and watch.. and make up.. costs quite abit .. maybe you can sell for some money.. let me go...
Robber:- AIYA! I WANT YOUR BAG FULL OF MAKEUP FOR WHAT!!!! GO LA GO LA.. CONSIDER I TODAY I NO LUCK.. MEET SOMEONE LIKE YOU!
Then I run away from there as fast as possible... *La La La LA* *sweat* manage to escape!

I was so desperate for money last night that I actually started thinking what in my bag is valuable.. Aha! I can cash in my LRT card.. I hope... Hehe... But in the end, my friend came.. and I was saved! Yippee!! What an experience!

OKOK, Byebye.. Work is calling.. Boss is going to kill me already!

Happy New Year!

Haha. happy new year everbody! albeit a bit late, but better late than never right? How was all the partying? Enjoyed the hangovers? wakakaakakkaa I've been feeling rather lethargic.. and lazy to update my blog. Haha... Sigh, the holidays are over... how I wish it is longer.. I know some people will say I'm lazy or rather a boring person, cause I want some more holidays to just sleep at home and watch tv. Haha.. just to spend a lazy afternoon....

New Year's Resolutions

This is so silly. Each year I make new resolutions and end up not fulfilling it. Will I be able to fulfill it this year? I think, last year I didn't even bother to make resolutions....I think it'll be better if i keep this year's resolutions to myself.. in case.. i slack off again.. hahhahahahhaha

New Year's Eve, I was at One Utama... went to dinner in TGIF and watch the fireworks at One Utama and those at Ikano. Lovely fireworks... took some pictures... too bad.. not in this computer.. else I will upload it already.. perhaps... later this week...

*YAWN* I'm sleepy... another 1 hour plus to go home.. yeah I know the time published is early.. actually it is now almost 5pm... the time stated in the post is because I created this post early but did not write anything in it.... til now.. hahahahahhha

my wish of the year :- if only office is near my home.....

i know this post is boring...my brain is rather sluggish.. need to warm up first... hopefully my next post is more.. ahem.. interesting...sorry if i bored y'all!